Wednesday, November 21, 2012

saat di ;D



owh its raining...



baby alsam danish !
syoikk tngk tb 


two kids ;D

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

hello cyntaa ;'D

eheylo. im back. next post update gbr, nyh srkg i blogg duluu.. here its goes ! ~
- awesome hotel , awseome guys ( shiyol la zuraa , mat malaysia shiyal , pun boleh perr ??? ) obesse with camera , keep taking picture and roses ! 
si handsome handsome , anak pak ustaz . keep eyeing on hym , byle dyer tak nmpk. awwwwwwwww , hypergurl sgt.. 
dyer sedare jauh kush , i has a crush on hym.... 
kenaper eyh ? i selalu have those crush yg mesty related... ishh , maser tu amy . 
they too cute laa ! kkay diaammm . but still yerp , selalu taw.

-  skula dah nak startt. alhamdulilaah ! abg say , study well .
i will ! ~ 
next upload gbr. yerpyerp ! 
next blog i mean.......

Friday, November 16, 2012

I hate acting like I don't care when it's really tearing me up inside.

can i start crusing hym ???? 
im here still hurting... 
baby , i dun know how , i want it back will aie ?
 - i dream of rudy lil dirty sercet , i mean how kental or so whatever , i was there. hahaha. okaay itu sangatt pelik . its on wednesday 14 night. then today , 15 night , dreamt aboutt kak anie , dreamt about hym. how cheated he was behide me , then i was like running away. then , saw some hot cute guys. then nmpk kak anie. okaayy mcm3 actually. liddat only i remember. 
 nowday , everytime i wake up i would feel very sleepy. ermmmmm , penat , nagging everytime mum, 
  let's get what i want blog. 
 - arep if i count kan kite dah 1yr , kkay , lol , are we still? i dnknow la , and he text me for 3days thn dah stop, merepek nyh....
- faizz dunwan reply my text per , i miss you .. 
- the quetion is now , should i be waiting , or get over it ?? i dunwant say gudbye. why must you leave me hangging ? i desrerve someone better ker ? hais , is there any 3rd party ? i dn understand. im lonely. ><''
 i really cant petend anymore , that im okay wit you doing tis to me. please dont take my paticence for granted. im too emocially.. i wanna cryy la.


sudah lah , i nak start with my busyness. maybe , i gonna send mgs to his acct. tgu jek .
okaaaaaaaaaaaay . ~

Monday, November 12, 2012

Its the THIRDTEEN today....

hey. its thidteen . and arint with muhhamad farhan... sumpah i miss hym . . . 
what shld i really being doingg ? eyh , shyal la if i got tankgis alr did , find , and so on laa fuckk. . too bad i dun have any tangkis la. but shld i really do ? nak add fb dyer , or maybe just mgs only , no addding. haihs. akuh nyh masihh ppn kau ke bkn . if i can stay while yu nqh ns , why cant you do the same ? i mean like , takperlu la ahde facebook abey , status single and so on siaa. tak kelakar taww . oh my gAwrd. we are alr , 6mths. 
do slient break exsit ? i mean seriously ? nowdays , they still got those ke ? ermmmmmmm...
mcm jek nak turn him off gtuk . saying , where had you beein , do you miss me like ai do . what happen to US . trus terang jek uh . i would , maybe . i misss US ! 
you dun even text me , call me , aper nak jady . aku tawu la , kau nqh NS . aku bkn ppn yg cheap cheap la , yg kau dah puas pas tuh buang jek. eyh i got feeling too okayyy...
i dun understand. i guess i better off alne , then rathier be in someone'else life. i bosan la 
i dun understand why , i feel so haish. ppl come and go , so why bother . . 
ai so so un wanted , cheapppo sgt per . haty aysik kena sakit jekk.
byle aku syanq org tuh , dyer tgl kan aku . 
tak kelakar la. 
pikir aper senang senang kau sakit kan haty aku , mcm main game...
sumpah aku bosan dgn ini sume...
ya allah i rinduu muhammad farahan bin mohad ismail....
i wish he would miss me like i miss hym... ya tuhaannn............
i got nothing more to say now.  i also dunknow what to end off withh..
im willing to stay , why dun yu do the same huh????
listen to me. i give up. im not gponna have any relationship alr, cause its painfuuuul !!! 
maybe i will be lil more patiece , tapi jgn up up sudaah .
6mths and still counting.
i miss you muhammadfarhan </3

Sunday, November 11, 2012

HI ;b

Yesterday , met faiz , went to his nephw birthday , at pasir ris . supposly , kiyte meet , bt instead asks me to come at le chalet . i say i malu , then he say alaa come only , so i did come , my first time to went pasir ris park , well , its kinda far inside , its elise road or someting lah. then onces reach , we went sit downn , for awhile , kite chill , and talk . heart to heart talk maybe. ;D 
then at le batu thr got some nmber he read out. i was say about mine , 0130512 , and i say dah hilanq, i told hym i dah taknak , in relatiosip lagy , i want kejar my career . then he kinda say maty tak kal takde mataie? and i say tak , thn , its better w/o living someone else life. yerp , actually , all i see is , wen you need someone , the only , that come only , your close friends, your speacial one wont be there. then , he say , yeap , get the picttre. ahisj , he the best one laaa. 
we didnt catupe , a pictt , intstead half jek , nnty i suree upload di twitter , stay tune ;p 
at le chalet , he intro to his sister. then sruh i makan.then he say must makan , if not changr , haaaahhhahahahahaa , aper jek . i manje gurl eyhh ~ okayokay , dah amqai malam , he intro me to his granddad , grandmum , mum , aunt . aaaahaha. am i the only gurl , he ever into to his family , i paishey taww . >.<'' then he salam his cousin , handsome , plus , one of them look like abdilah , alil alike liddat. err okayy , nak filrt ehh ? aaaahhaaah. i am not faiz teman isterimewa kind , bt im his so call bestygrlfriend wit a '' . yeapyeap., i admit la , i like his accents , but we wont be together , nooo wayyy , i dnwan ruin this lovely friendsip i have. imgh , kalu anytin appen , we wont be tis awesome alr. dnwan kaan . ~

half jek . haaaha. hie <3
one moreee. aaahaha. okaay <3

 

Friday, November 9, 2012

pssst ><''

oh i forget what to blog. being few days i want blog , but cannot . let me see , hahah.
i think its about mine mum , errrr okaay , i start skula lamabt lagy. kkay bye.
i want lose weight, alaa, fck , i want tell the world everything . bt maser tidak di izinkan , why why why.... 
i miiss muhamad farhan , haish , 
 its gonna be 4more days to our anniesarries , and still no sign of hym , last night , i berdoa , bercirter dgn tuhan , berpapah , indah nya , dpt memluarkan aper yg aty ini raser. hash , ya allah , i rindu sgt dgn dyer . haishhhh. 
kalu dyer menrindi ku mesty , akan text or call. haish ..maaf la keyboard ku rosak, 
i still missing hym. i cant get over hhymm.. i begging on your knees , i miss you !!!
im really lost. what shld i do ? 
taqper la , bkn boleh jwb pnnn...
sumpah , its really hurt to pretd im fine. like seriously i cant... 
please come back to me ? imiss yoou.