pssst ><''

oh i forget what to blog. being few days i want blog , but cannot . let me see , hahah.
i think its about mine mum , errrr okaay , i start skula lamabt lagy. kkay bye.
i want lose weight, alaa, fck , i want tell the world everything . bt maser tidak di izinkan , why why why.... 
i miiss muhamad farhan , haish , 
 its gonna be 4more days to our anniesarries , and still no sign of hym , last night , i berdoa , bercirter dgn tuhan , berpapah , indah nya , dpt memluarkan aper yg aty ini raser. hash , ya allah , i rindu sgt dgn dyer . haishhhh. 
kalu dyer menrindi ku mesty , akan text or call. haish ..maaf la keyboard ku rosak, 
i still missing hym. i cant get over hhymm.. i begging on your knees , i miss you !!!
im really lost. what shld i do ? 
taqper la , bkn boleh jwb pnnn...
sumpah , its really hurt to pretd im fine. like seriously i cant... 
please come back to me ? imiss yoou.

I HAD ENOUGH !

it really make me piss . i dun understand why , do you do this to me ? you look so fine without me.? i wonder this is how you hurt , me lithis .? sholdent be too patiecer to you. i shld had give up earlier. yeah , i regret much, i damm you very much.. maybe i was wrong. i didnt know it will endup lithis. maybe i wasent the gurl , your looking for. maybe i wasent good enuf ;'< i shouldent be to awesome , to enter your life. eyh , seriously , am i important ? m i your gurlfriend?  your fb really getting increse , wow , reallyh intersrting la fuuck! do you miss me like i do ? i guess no hhuh ?from le 30sept till now 30oct , no text from you . eh , kyte slient break ehy ? wtf , dah kenape. maybe we shld be just parttime , so i wont be too hurt lithis . i was wrong. im sorry. i was too exticed to gett attch to yu , bt i didnt know thT this would , happen . i really meyesal . bt how m i getting this away. im too patice to wait for you , bt this is how i get treated , cheated on my bad. ehy , i understand la , yg you NS tapy , aku inscre shey. what if you get more pretty gurl then me , then can yu anythime maen dyer . i know la , i dun give you my thigy , becase , i dnwan kena label , and lose my face. akh taknak. diri aku malu. aku bkn ppn shiyal shey. 
maybe mmg kena ginie. im better off alone. taqperlah , im not good enuf. well i know where i sttand.;'>
let me cry for the last time . take me away . let me face this alnoe. cause you dn need me. okaay . 

i gonna start a new beinning, so let's SMILE

  

26october2012 ! 
A lovely wonderful , cherish night with rudyzulfiqar .
bestgyler dgn dyer taw. he keep saying i mepek , aduh , i kena stirp , i loike, well , naghter dgn dyer jek, no others guys ;DD 
well i dnknow how to tell , many3 .. then we go on the bed, woo yea. 
then after awhile , i kena stripp , eyhh best per. 
alaaa sdahh ,, yg penting , i like barenq at his chest ;)
although he's not mine , hes still mine in my heartt. 
frthre hes mine , amin . believe in fate , allah knows my hearts <3 
sunguh awesome bersamer dyer.. 
i think byle i naek cab , when he sent me off , he say my girlfriend. 
melt truus shey. ;'D  
<333

im always yours , RUDYZULFIKAR <3

hii selamat harie rayer <33 minal adil'wafa izin <3

i mia in twiitter and so on . 
ai nqh sohey sgt , mgs mataie tapi tidak balas. kenape dyer nyh ?
ya rabbbi , kenape harus ku hadap ini sume.? 
hari rayer mgs pun tak reply, 
kenape cruel nhyy !
i rindu la , at least reply laa <'; 
shiyalan la , kalu ego , serbk ego mu , mesty ahde igt kan aku kann ? nhy tak. astazga' ! 
kau ego ke aper sia ? menagpah taw ! haishh .
taqper erra kater , just give him time, ehh , nnty dyer pergy austrli how ? haish , bby  kenape sia kau snggup wat aku brgini ?
ai always waited for a text from yu , eventhought i know its kinda hardly. ;'<  
i rydu la seriouslyy. 




today the 26/08/12 , mlm nyh , i mimpi bby, alaa i rydu la pls. then the day before i dream about i smoke again , hmm shld i like buy cigg and smoke again , entah la, nqkk la nnty yeahyeah ?
oh duit rayer i sudah hilang , kenape ini harus terjadi ? $70 sia ! fuccck la kkay. tapqer ini bkn rezeki aku utk simpah , mum sumpah2 cpk tk amikk , alaaaa , i dun trust her >< !
and tady kak'lela sekuluarga dtg , ughh amyy <3 why you so tall and hot , wo ai le !
aku aysik pandanq nya bile tidak terlihat , kamu sungguh handsome <33
and i dpt duit rayer , almost $20. boleh la tuh , ddk ruma pun dpt duit rayer. haha, abg'khai say liddat, aikk , i soo argee ;'D


hii <3 sorry keep not ulishnishing. keep on hold. 
anyway its alr 24octorber, see how fast it that ? ;'D
not really know what to blog... well everything kinda reveal at twitter. hahaha krkrik kay.
zurafarhan , we alr 5mths , and i still had not meet hym . kenaper sheyy ?
abey dah gtuk tarqper taw, i phm la, kau busy ,  tapy snggh toomchh ! then ahde facebook , what's your intention huh? m i not good enf ? haish , i dnknow why... 
rudy , dah attch shey. hmm , and yestterday he texted me , asks me out. dyer takboleh jauh kt dari aku? heheh, takla. memaen jek.. but okaylah , i play along with his game , ini sngh best , like finallly after so long...
and rudy arhu jek mataie dah ahde cincin , do you know how much painn im rightnow ? i is jeslouus ;<
mcm i never that kind of r/s before, i pun nakkk sheyy ;'< if only boyfiend akuu mcm rudyy wodent it be greatt ?? haish , kenaper la dyer uat ai mcm nie.. no call no text , its that mean we are over ? but i dunwant too , he like the great one like yeaah ;D 
what shld i do rightnow ? 
nnty org tanyer , i pretend to be single la, if with rudy soon..
okay that all . 
blogg soon <33 

please come back to me ;')

happy 18 noww ;'D

hie.. ;'D

atiq sudah fly away alr , ai cant meet hym , sort of ddady kena gy overseas. and he mad at me and maki ai atas bawah le... i kinda sad, taq pernah kena maki serabak2 nyhh, haishh... i hope he is safe at there , and always remember me here, hmm , insha'allah , he will be back nextyear on my birthday.. lamer kann . tarqper la , sbr jek iyer zuraa , if he do care he will remember me, i hope so... kalu tak , i dunknow what to do alr le.................

sleep over at sissy house on the 14july , celeb balqis and my adv bdyy . best laa. its was blast with balqis. ;'DD  its always first to everything.. ;D

text rudy , rudy , jahat , tak nak meet me , cause i still neh change. so jahat la. but tarqper , someday dyer take back his words punyer , percaya la ;')

boyfie dah masuk ns , lalala kepala botak la ... LOL . he tot ai kinda gurl , who will leave hym , and say bad things to hym , aduhh , come on uh , i m your gurlfriend le , ahsal taknak trust nyh ? alalla, tarqper , he say he will ttrust me, bgs laaa ;'D i like very long never meet hym , kiwak's rindu shiyaal ! boyfie understanding , very supportive le. dyer suruh ai take office. hmmm , then when i skulling , i will sure have more tyme for hym , alaaa , swweet kan dehkni <3 im sure , hes the only one now.. shayanq dyer okay ;> i promise will treat hym right. ;'>

i m still very firlty le. tak boleh taw , ahde mataie shey . hmmmm ><

anyways , i daaa apply for offices and beauty . harap'harap dpt. aqu bodhh la , shld had cilick for the new ite at amk , tak perasan uhh . >< .. tarqper la . hmmm >< .

gudnyte <3

insecure .

hello;p 

dunknow where to start uhh.

boyf aku dah tak text lagy, idk why

atiq , hes back , seronoh laa . okay , i nak meet hym soon , before my bdy , dyer nak kasy i present la. taaaaaaaapy , skrg dher tak reply....

se mane busy pun he still need to text me whaat . what kind of guy is he ? seriously , i tak phm laaa.... 

if you dunwan talk to me , nor answering my call's and replying my text. why eh ? i dun understand. your leaving , and u dun even wan to spend tyme with me ? oh, i got it , want me see yu nextyear ker? wahduh , so cruel ! 

if you treat me like your enemry , can tell me why ? haish . peragaaai perrrrrrrrrrrrr ! 

do you think of me now ?? if really  u wan to avoid me or make me ur enemry , can tell whaat. 

seriouslyyy , how to not think , if everything is negative ? haishh , seriouslyy . mcm maneq nyh ?  

ohh im nothing to you ker ? 

atiq , yu suker , buat i rase insecure ! ><

taper , patience is the answer , perhap , i tgu . ;'> althought i hate waiting , but if it worth it then shall waaaaaaait. ;'> 

 bdyy ai daa dkt nyh , nak present taw.

hmmm , sissy called , asked to sleep over , 

steamboat uh . best nyhh. 

rudyyyyyy dtg ruma perhap ? naq3 ? hehehe. ;D 

guddnye for noww. keep smiling.

we shall see. ;/      

the only one ;p

hello'hello ;D 
every thirteen , our anniversary . 
dah offcially perharp. ;D
 his the best la. mcm , he know how cheer me up , and so on lerr ;D
 when a girl is on slient mood , and what yu do is , trying to cheer me up , yeah , i was over thinking , i cried and hug yu. haishh . this is the one im expectin . thankyou <3 
and was with my friends , you get along with my friends , major turnon la !